start of my senior year

well...i should blog what's up in my life.

My life is absolutely crazy. Between class, work, and I-life, I'm definitely busy. Take Monday, for example, is my busiest day. I have class from 10 until noon. Then I work from 12:15 until about 2:15 and then I go to the Union for my Bowling class from 3 until 4:20 and then I go back to work from 4:30 until 7, and get home at 7:30. Now if I work out on a Monday I work out after work at 7:30, and so I don't get home until about...9pm. And then I get stuff done, and go to bed, waking up at 6:30 for an 8am class. And that's a night that I don't have Home Fellowship or Connect group...which happens later in the week. Life is definitely full...but it makes the weeks go by quickly.

You may have noticed I said I'm taking a bowling class. Yup. I needed an extra credit somewhere so I decided to take bowling. Basically I bowl everyday. My lowest score as been a 79...but my most recent and highest score this past Wednesday was a 144! I was very proud of myself!

But even on the weekends, I feel like I am constantly on the go, meeting with girls to hang out, or meeting to write a lesson plan for class. I feel like I should be going crazy, but my Father fills my heart completely. He calms me, and gives me peace. I am so excited to see the adventure He has been taking me on. I feel like He has awakened me in a sense.

I now look at my church and see the dryness. My heart breaks, and I pray for a revival. And I know God will answer. I see the Spirit of the Lord moving even. I was sitting with a friend outside at a coffee shop (covered by a roof) amidst the pouring rain this morning. It was raining the hardest it has in a long time. And we sit there encouraging each other in our faith, and see the dryness in our church and longing for more depth. And I feel like God speaks to my heart saying "Rachel, see this rain. Just wait, I am going to bring the rain." It was amazing.

I am walking a road that makes me trust my Lord more than I ever have before in my life. In Mark 8:35, Jesus says, "If you try to keep your life for yourself, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake and for the sake of the Good News, you will find true life." And then Jesus says in John 10:10, "The thief comes only to kill and destroy, but I have come that they may have life and have it to the full." Jesus offers true life, deeper life that we live now. But in order to find that life, we must let go of the life we have now. I feel like I have come to a point in my life where I am really losing my life, laying everything on the line for the sake of my Father, and in that loss, I find true life and joy. Life I had never known before. Joy I had never experienced before. I have heard people tell me (and I have said myself) that God is all we need, we must let Him satisfy us completely. And now I feel it. My Father satisfies every single desire in my heart. I really need nothing else. I am hidden in Christ, and filled with the Spirit. Oh, what life I have found! And what life I want everyone to know.

There's a bit of an update of my school year so far. The Spirit of the Lord is moving so much in my heart.